patience

patience isn't really something i've been known to have. i've tried to work on it - many times, but i go right back to giving up on it and complaining once again that i have none. so, here i am again, asking God to please give me patience (and NOW!).

i know it'll take time (it's patience, duh!), but i am serious this time. i'm tired of playing games and losing every time. there are just so many things in my life that i am unhappy about right now. and i know that all i have to do to be happy about those things is keep my focus on God and develop this patience and understanding. it's just so hard to break myself and make myself realize that i have to stop playing around.

sooooo.... with that, school is coming closer and closer to the end. i know, i know, this semester JUST started. but, it's my last full semester in class and my goodness, it's getting scary! it's kinda a last chance type deal and i'm really not sure if i'm ready to face "the real world." but, it's coming whether i like it or not, so i might as well get ready for it.