Friday, April 2, 2010

unexpected blessings

so.... i was dreading this day for a long time for lots of reasons:
  1. last day i was gonna be 25 (i mean, it's just downhill from here!)
  2. april fool's day (never fun if you're a teacher. of high school students. some of whom you're certain hate you.)
  3. what annette and i dubbed black thursday (i hate the fact schools are losing so much money. how do they ever expect kids to get ahead in life if they won't provide enough money to let them have a decent education? grr... i could go on for hours on this subject and it probably would make me use inappropriate language. because it makes me that freakin mad.)
ANYWAY....
all the bad to say one good thing. one really good thing.
in all my life i've believed and trusted in God. some times more than other times, but all in all, i've heard my whole life that God will provide for you, take care of you, sometimes when we want God to answer our prayers and we feel like he doesn't, that's his way of saying "not right now. that's not best for you," etc. i totally completely 100% saw that today.
rewind a couple of years..... i was furious at my bosses. could not believe how much they were - for lack of a better term - screwing me over. it was ridiculous. i was hurt. i felt bitter for weeks, probably months. could not understand why they were doing that to me.
ok, go back to today. it finally all came together. God provided for me in so many ways. He knew what was coming and He took care of me.
i always hear "it's a God thing"... today i was able to say it. and truly, absolutely, without a doubt mean it.

(and crap, i didn't finish this until after midnight, so technically it is all yesterday now! and dangit that #1 isn't as relevant. oh well!)