a month later

so so so hard to believe that school is almost over! i have 28 school days left! yay! it makes me so happy to know that. but, at the same time, it scares the crap out of me. i'm not even close to being finished with everything i wanted to teach this year. i hope i do better next year.
eoi testing starts this week. i'm not gonna lie. i'm a little nervous. but i remember that it is my first year. they really can't compare me to anyone else. not that i'm really worried about it, but i just don't like failing. it's not something i like to do.
haha! so pretty much the entire student body thinks that i have some sort of hatred against samurais. it's a long story, but it's so funny. they didn't understand what i was upset about at all, but just the fact that they think i got so angry about samurais is funny now. haha!
still in the hole. still liking it. loving it actually. it's hard. really hard. but i don't want anything to change. which it will change. a lot. and that sucks. but at the same time, i think it'll be good for me to get some distance. i think. maybe it'll be worse. absence does make the heart grow fonder, right? we'll see. i just wish things would turn out like i want it to. but even what i want more than likely isn't what i need or what will be best for me. hmmm...